I Know Your Secret
20 If we had forgotten the name of our God or spread out our hands to a foreign god, 21 would not God discover this? For he knows the secrets of the heart (Psalm 44.20-21).
I know your secret. I know about the late night trysts with the internet. I know about the 30-second mental love affairs. I know about the half-truths, and whole lies you’ve told in order to get ahead. I know about the money you spent the other day you shouldn’t have spent, and I know what you’ve spent it on. I know about the hatred you feel when you think of their name. I know about the anger you feel when you get home and see your spouse. I know about the desire to have more even though you cannot yet afford more. I know about the taxes and the Olympic-level legal gymnastics you’ve performed to make those numbers work. I know about the words you spoke to a coworker the other day when they didn’t do their job right that made them feel inches tall. I know about clothes you chose to wear the other day, putting yourself on display, so you could get some much wanted but inappropriate attention. I know about the drinks you enjoyed, and how many, and exactly how drunk you were. I know about the pills you’ve taken justifying they are perscription, even though you know when your honest that is not why you take them. I know about that person who pleaded with you to forgive them, and even though you agreed, you didn’t mean it.
I also know about the times you’ve spent watching tv, shopping, browsing the internet, and overall wasting away the limited amount of time you have in life. I know about the times you could be studying the Bible but neglecting it. I know about the prayers you’ve half prayed because you were too distracted. I know about the times you could have helped your neighbor, but had something “better” to do. I know about the gatherings you’ve failed to attend because you “didn’t have to go” even though you know you should go. I know about the coworker, and friend, and family you’ve refused to speak to about the Gospel even though you’d had multiple and ample opportunity. I know about the times you’ve felt yourself too important for others who aren’t quite as great as yourself. I know about the times you’ve said the right words but never put enough heart behind those words for it to truly be worship.
I know about the guilt you feel because I know your secrets. I know that anyone who has accumulated the sin you’ve committed surely is exhausted with guilt.
But I also know I love you enough to redeem you. This is why Jesus died for you. We forgive you. We want to erase your guilt and instead overwhelm you with feelings of love. We want you to be amazed with how much compassion we feel for you.
We want you to know that even though we know your secret, we also know your potential. You can do great things for others. You can do great things for the Kingdom. You can do great things if you will start to boast in us instead of yourself.
So here’s the deal. Do away with secrets. Give them up. Come clean. Make a new way of life free from the overwhelming weight of guilt. Today. Don’t let another day pass. If you will do this today, I guarantee a life full of love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control (Gal 5.22-23).
A letter from God